Sparkle little stars

Tuesday, 25 November 2014

Warning. I've got all the feels today. And it's not even that time of the month. So if you're not in the mood for sentimental warblings you might want to give this post a wide berth.


Where does the bloody time go?

In what seems like half a breath my tiny baby is a beautiful little boy. Wobbling around the house, doing his own thing and demanding stuff. I don't remember telling him it was ok to leave babyhood behind so quickly. How dare he move on without me!? I'm not ready. 

Don't get me wrong, I love this stage too. He says the cutest, funniest things now. His personality develops that little bit more every single day. In the middle of his busy little world, he stops for a few seconds and comes to me for a cuddle. The best cuddles.

And don't even get me started on Dylan and Meryn. Wow. They're proper humans. With opinions and tempers, strengths and struggles, preferences, personalities and amazing senses of humour. They're awesome. But this all happened overnight surely? How did it not unfold slowly in front of my eyes? I didn't wake up one morning with a six and an eight year old. It feels like that sometimes though.

Almost every day I tell myself to slow down and notice the little things. Stop to chat to them more and remember them just as they are. For the most part, I do. But not as much as I intend to. 

I'm terrified of turning around in a few years and feeling like I missed something. Or that they've missed something. Or, worst of all, that it's too late to take notice.

So, this is my promise to myself. 

To listen to Dylan's Minecraft soliloquies. I have no clue what he's going on about, who L for Leeee is, what redstone and skins are, but he loves it and he knows, and that's all that matters. And I'll stroke his back for longer every night. Instead of just a few minutes and then rushing off to tidy the kitchen, I'll spend an extra five minutes. It means the world to him.

I'll listen to Meryn's real-time accounts of every, single, minute detail of her break time at school. And when she wants me to paint with her or play that bloody awful Barbie board game (that I'm pretty sure we're playing wrong, cos surely no board game can be that utterly tedious), I will sit and enjoy that time with her, because I'm pretty sure she won't want to do those things in a few years from now. 

I spend most of my time with Ayden at the moment and it's easy to get distracted. Jobs to do, places to go, things to sort out. I want to enjoy and wallow in every second of his toddler…ness. When I look around next he'll be seven and playing Minecraft with his big brother!

My little stars light up my life and I want to remember every single sparkle. 

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2 comments

  1. I also promised this before. There was a time when I got really really obsessed with blogging that I am doing so while missing out on fun with my son. Now I am playing with him more than blogging =) #mmwbh

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  2. I love this. I too need to remember to slow down and appreciate the little things a lot more. x x

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